babble

I still find myself refraining from talking about food from time to time. Like, because i am fat, this means that i can’t talk about food AT ALL - if i do, that just proves everyone else right somehow.

Totally ridiculous. I should know by now that anyone has already made up their minds that “fat people = gluttons” can’t be convinced otherwise. It’s like pushing a rope. No thanks.

So i’m trying a bit of an experiment. I’ve gone out and subscribed myself to a LOT of different food blogs; TasteSpotting is a nice central hub. They link (via sumptuous pictures) to a number of other foodie blogs.

I like the blogs with pictures and recipes. I want to see how people make food (because i never learned how to cook), the pictures they take of it, and i want to get ideas for nummy foods that i could make. Or more likely, cajole Ben into making for us.

I recognize that at least part of this is the Miss Contrary side of me that says “if i’m gonna do the time, might as well do the crime”. Honestly? I don’t like junk food all that much. Sure, i get insane cravings where i must eat every french fry on the face of the earth, but that’s usually Hormone-related. I usually feel bad afterwards because my body just doesn’t like all that grease.

No, i’d far rather splurge on home-made pot stickers,  or pumpkin cornbread cupcakes with maple cream cheese frosting (so good, it makes you wanna slap someone).

I want to enjoy my food. I want enjoy my life, and since i have to eat to live, i want to enjoy eating.

Seems silly, perhaps. Next thing you know i’ll suggest that you enjoy breathing, for pete’s sake. Actually, i totally would, but someone already beat me to it:

Breathing in and out is very important, and it is enjoyable. Our breathing is the link between our body and our mind. Sometimes our mind is thinking of one thing and our body is doing another, and mind and body are not unified. By concentrating on our breathing, “In” and “Out,” we bring body and mind back together, and become whole again. Conscious breathing is an important bridge.

To me, breathing is a joy that I cannot miss. Every day, I practice conscious breathing, and in my small meditation room, I have calligraphed this sentence: “Breathe, you are alive!” Just breathing and smiling can make us very happy, because when we breathe consciously we recover ourselves completely and encounter life in the present moment.

from “Peace Is Every Step”, by Thich Nhat Hanh